Before the year comes to a close, its time to recount the happenings of the last year. The things to be grateful for and the experiences to learn from. What went well and what could be worked upon. All this is an effort to honor my year and to have clarity and zeal to grow more.
I believe that its important to not be too content in our life journey. We must keep trying to improve ourselves, but without stressing ourselves. This journey of self improvement must be taken with a lot of lightheartedness, ease and joy. So in this spirit, it is time to evaluate my journey so far.
Many choose to recount their lives journey as a graph, with the ups and downs. I choose to compartmentalize, the things that are important to me. This allows for clarity and helps me to not get foggy about my future goals and plans.
Touched upon an extremely significant milestone – 5 Years Cancer Free. I am in gratitude to my team of doctors, nurses, family, friends and everyone who was a part of this journey. Without this network of support it would not have been possible to reach this point.
This 5 year journey has been about giving complete priority to gaining back my health in totality, which included wellness of the physical body, the mind and the spirit. Now its time to take it a step further and focus a little more on body image. Being an artist means gaining a certain level of physical fitness which will allow me to take on more challenging roles and opportunities. This is something which I look forward to working on.
Another aspect which I would like to work upon is not being fazed by challenges and obstacles. Although I am extremely driven and motivated, I have observed myself procrastinating and loosing confidence in face of obstacles. Eventually it all works out, but I would like to resolve to be more focused in face of any challenges.
Spending the major part of 2017 in Kathmandu gave me ample opportunities to bond with my family here. Travels with mom to Haridwar & local Nepal sights have been wonderful bonding moments. And in the coming year, I resolve to find or make more time for my old friends and bond with also.
Relationships need constant work. We must strive to accept ourselves and each other and this means we must avoid judging, complaining and trying to fix each other. Just accept and love each other. An aspect which I will work on is communicating very gently with all. One thing I have realized is that earlier I used to not speak out at all and now I am working on learning to be more mindful of what I say.
My work is an essential part of my life. As you grow older and as you grow more mature it becomes more important. It can take a different shape and form but it will always be an important aspect of life. This year, I have added to my plate, my vocation as a motivational speaker.
On the cinema front the year has been very eventful. Starting with the release of Dear Maya to working on Dibakar Banerjee’s Bombay Talkies 2. And of course working on AR Rahman’s maiden project 99 Songs and portraying Nargis Dutt in Rajkumar Hirani’s next has been extremely satisfying. I wish to continue this trend by ensuring that I take on work which challenges and forces me to expand my own limits.
2017 also saw a slew of speaking engagements from prominent corporations such as HCL, Apollo Hospitals, a few government led initiatives like the Women’s Parliament event and many more. However the cherry on cake was definitely coming on a platform like TEDx. This gave me an opportunity to meet and interact with individuals across different industries and it was definitely a brilliant experience.
Finally getting felicitated at Dadasaheb Phalke Award and by Navbharat times was the highlight of this wonderful year.
Every year I have like to evaluate if I have made a difference to wherever I have gone, if I have impacted communities possibilities. Starting at home base in Kathmandu, we took great strides in cleaning Bagmati River. A lot is yet to be done, but on the outset progress has been made. Lot of work was undertaken in tandem with the UNFPA team, we travelled twice to the tarai areas of Nepal, once for flood relief and another for the fistula awareness program. Also steps were taken towards cancer awareness with Cancer Care Nepal, working with young committed oncologists was wonderful, and at Bhaktapur Hospital and of course meeting the lovely girls at St. Mary’s High School in Kathmandu.
Similar efforts taken in Delhi by Walk For Life CanSupport and the the My Hair for cancer event undertaken by the Nargis Dutt Foundation in Mumbai. Every time a philanthropic work is undertaken, it appears no matter how much you give, you end up taking more in terms of life experiences and realizations. Hope that 2018 brings more opportunities to reach out and do a lot more.
One more chapter I want to discuss is my relationship with money. Its more about a certain amount of energy you create in the world than just maintaining a bank account. Our earnings are also linked with a sense of worth, the thought that we can generate that money if wish too, so it becomes a confidence building process as well. In the coming year, I will value and respect this energy more by taking steps to preserve current funds and be mindful of my expenditures.
2017 was indeed the year of interesting experiences. Beginning at the Nepal, whilst Kathmandu is not very comfortable due pollution and crowds, just a couple of hours away you have the most beautiful hiking spots. There is the scenic Budhanilkantha – Baghdwar hike and of course another place to visit around Kathmandu is Chitwan National Park comprising of thick lush jungle… jungle safaris, elephant rides, boat rides and beautiful sunsets. Couldn’t be close to Nature.
Next was the Kailash Trip.This was the most finest and exotic trip ever. There is a certain amount of mysticism, certain amount of mystery and attractiveness here. Its something which unspoken, unsaid and unexplainable. Such things can only be experienced.
We started with camping at Lhasa to acclimatize and then we traveled to Mt. Kailash.For most of the trip, I was on horseback and it was on the last day that I walked a lot. It was extremely calming and soothing experience. While we all were in a group, everyone was also by themselves by silently taking it all in. The whole energy was just fantastic.
There were a few challenges related to hygiene, washrooms and sleeping in dusty probably used beds, these made me very uncomfortable. But a place like Kailash has a different vibe, and you realize that you can actually tolerate the hardships and go beyond the physical and mental hardships. Once this this obstacle was lifted, I found that I could tolerate this kind of atmosphere and this was very liberating for me. God willing, the next year I would be back for a couple of weeks, do some meditation and try to absorb more of that energy.
A few other noteworthy trips included Haridwar with mom, where we mediated on the river banks, Goa trip with Aysha my friend from Denmark, Poland for the first ever film festival and Cape Town for shooting of the Dutt bio epic with Rajkumar Hirani’s film unit. All wonderful experiences where the beauty of the places and the joy of travel was increased twofold with the right company and travel partners. Travel is something which will definitely continue in the new year, i hope to discover some unknown places and learn more about different cultures, histories and way of life.
Here ends the review of my past year and hope that the next year will be as eventful as the last and brings in ample opportunities to learn, grow and indeed have a content year ahead.
I would like to close by asking you dear reader about your year. What are your reflections of 2017 and resolutions for 2018?